Essentially, it boils down to negative body issues. I look at someone like Killian Jornet, or Rob Krar, and I just think "Who the fuck do I think I'm fooling? I'm never gonna be those guys. I'm 5' 7", I'm creeping up on 50, and on my absolute BEST day I might hit 160 lbs."
Honestly, it makes me want to curl up into a ball and give up on running or any other kind of athleticism. And sometimes I do. I give in to the depression of not being some kind of physical ideal.
And the worst part? I know I'm not alone. There are thousands of other people who go through what I do, and much, much worse.
So, for me, I've decided that it comes down to perceptions. Everything I wrote three paragraphs back? 100% true. I am all those things. I am short, old and built like a fireplug. There's no denying it.
But that doesn't mean I have to look at it as a detriment. Yeah, I'm all those things, and despite all that, I'm STILL putting in the miles,STILL lifting heavy shit and STILL getting the job done.
The best part, though? I know that everyone of you reading this is in my corner, and I want you all to know I'm in yours.
And I promise you, as long as we hold onto that, there's no mile too long, weight too heavy, or crisis too dire, that we can't beat it.
Thank you all. You make my life amazing.